Learning how to dance with the world and Life as it is

Wishing the world would be different from what it is and how to soften into the energy of Grace and acceptance of the world as it is

It seems to me that some of us become the adult we all needed when we were young; In my case this has made me a fierce mama lion roarer and protector of life in all its colours with a violent distaste for all the ways in which life in any form is violated and diminished.

However this stance I have on life that has become my dominant stance since living in southern europe and which is very different from the dominant stance that I held previous to moving to southern europe can be a subtle duality energy. In some ways the inner dynamics of this still reveal aspects in myself that feel that some things are “good” and therefore some things must be inherently the opposite “bad”. We all can become attached to our own pain, separatisms and defender tactics and inner warriors in the name and desire to be helpful but sometimes our helpfulness can come from a distorted place

As a reluctant Incarnate I watch and know within myself the desire to show the world who I am, to prove that somehow I am viable enough in the different ways i serve humanity to warrant my presence here on earth to be valid and “prove” that I deserve to be called a human being even though I long to go home which means for me back to the spirit world. In these times I then I have to remember that I chose this assignment; I chose to come to Earth and I therefore must fulfill everything I am here to give so when my time comes to truly go home I can make that transition in satisfaction and completion of my soul purpose to come and play my part.

I watch within myself the need to call out the ones who violate, deceive, manipulate and denigrate other humans, other life forms, and mother nature herself; at times in true bewilderment of who I have become. I never used to be this noisy courageous or brave. Whilst I rationally know are people who action these life denying energies are in so much pain somewhere in their cosmos that they live life in violent negation of themselves and others; numbed out in some way and unable to connect to anything outside of their own life or their own self in survival mode., it doesn’t make it easier to keep my fiery defence of respect, love, inclusion and differentiation down and silent anymore.